Loneliness

I have been feeling lonely lately.
Not everyday but still...it happens quite often..

Today I started my day with yoga. It was my first time and I think I liked it. I continued my exercise with blogilates, which I am not sure if I should do it after yoga but I didn't experience any problems.

My day was pretty basic. I packed more boxes with books, as we get ready for the renovation.
Had lunch, slept for a while, talked with couple of friends, texted with M and that was it.

Night had arrived and here I am...feeling lonely.

I don't have any tips about dealing with loneliness. I tend to dwell on thoughts that make me feel depressed...so I guess a good tip would be to keep my/your mind busy.

I check pinterest (facebook and instagram are usually a bad idea when I feel like that).
I try to listen to happy and cheerful songs but it doesn't work and so I go back to listen more chill and sometimes...sad songs (guilty..I know).

I have a trouble focusing on a movie or an episode and usually a book works better for me (it something that I have noticed lately).

Surprisingly writing this post has actually proved to be quite helpful.
So if you are reading this...thank you!

Do you ever feel lonely?
And if you do, how do you cope with your loneliness?

Lots of love to all those who feel lonely tonight or any other day.
People say "this too shall pass.." I guess that's true.

Love,
Arti x

Pinning my Sunday away

It's Sunday and this means it is time for relaxation.

I didn't sleep very well last night. I actually woke up around 5ish and I couldn't sleep again so I decided to have a ball of cereal and just watch couple of youtube videos.

After an hour though I started feeling sleepy and so...I slept until 11.

Woke up and had breakfast...again! I know, I am the worst.. This time I had two toasts of bread with homemade marmalade on top. I think it was peach marmalade but I am not very sure.

I finished my toasts and coffee while watching youtube videos and then I decided to sort out my Likes on Pinterest. I have around 1600 and I used to have 400 more of them. I usually like pins that have to do with articles about beauty tips or ideas for the house and when I don't have them to read them I just like them with the intention to read them another time.

Sometimes it gets out of hand though and that's why I tend to sort them and categorize the ones that I want to keep on my boards.

You can check my pinterest profile here.

Lately I have been enjoying pinning things about movies and house ideas among other things.

We are planning on renovating our house in the coming days so I guess I am biiiit obsessed lately with pins about bathroom (it's the first room we are going to change).

So I guess I will continue categorizing my liked pins and later I will probably work out following the last day of the blogilates calendar.

If you don't know about Blogilates and Casey and if you were planning on starting to work out please please please check her website and her youtube channel. I will post the links below for you.

Hope you have a great Sunday guys!!

Love,
Arti x

Blogilates: www.blogilates.com
Youtube/channel: www.youtube.com/channel

Catching up.. part1

Hey there!

How are you all doing? Hope everything is great with your lives! It has been quite a while since my last post so let me tell you what has happened so far.

Me and M are back together. We still live in different countries but we are still trying and working hard on the so called LDR (long distance relationship)

In January I started working at a call center as technical support (internet connection problems etc.) Wasn't crazy about it. I hadn't even applied for the job. They just found my resume and they called me in for an interview. I liked helping people but I didn't like the internet/router/etc stuff. It was boring and the environment wasn't great either.

So once in a while I tried to escape. That's when I went to Morocco! Yay

But to get there I had to fly with Ryanair since it had cheap tickets. First stop was Milan. 

My best friend Marianna came with me for two days. She loves Italy so it wasn't that hard to convince her. We stayed for two nights at an airbnb place. The experience wasn't great but we blame our hostess for that. 

Anyway Milan was fun but I didn't love it. It was also crazy expensive.. We went there on Friday and Marianna left on Sunday. As soon as I woke up on Sunday, I showered and left from that place. Next stop was Lake Como and Bellagio. I was so tired that I slept all through the train ride. When I got there I bought a ticket to travel to Bellagio by boat. I think it was around 20-24 euros and it took me 2 hours to get there. Bellagio was so beautiful but I was so so tired.

As soon as I got off the boat, I went straight to a restaurant to use their bathroom (I wanted to pee so bad!). This cute restaurant happened to make pizza's in the oven, so I decided to have lunch there. I ordered a delicious pizza with salami on top and a glass of white wine. It was sooo good. I loved it! After that I was full but that didn't stop me from grabbing a gelato. The flavor I tried was cream with pieces of a special cake they make in Bellagio. Forgive me but I don't remember the name of it. Amazing once again!

Pizza, wine and gelato made me really sleepy so when I visited the Melzi gardens all I wanted to  do was sleep on a bench. One tip about Melzi gardens: it is full of couples. Think about it again if you want to visit it solo because it can be both depressing and annoying (especially if you are sleepy from all the food you ate before).

I left from Bellagio and on the train ride back to Milan I was talking with two very friendly guys from Egypt. One of them had been in Milan over a year now and the other one (his cousin I think) was just visiting. It was nice talking with them and it was very interesting to learn more things about their culture.

At some point one of them asked for my full name to add me on facebook. I gave it to him but to be honest I didn't add him... The funny thing was that when he asked me, his friend/cousin looked so embarrassed. 

As much as I enjoyed their company, I was glad they didn't get off at the same stop with me. When the train reached the end, I continued with the metro to my next destination. This time I would try couchsurfing for the first time. I had read very good reviews about my host so I wasn't worried for arriving there at the middle of the night (but it's not something I would do in the future and it isn't something I would suggest you to do). 

M (another M! I am surrounded by M hahah) was very friendly. He welcomed be and very quickly it felt like home. There were three of his friends. An Italian guy and two sisters who I am not sure but I think they were from Lithuania...nah I am probably wrong but I can't remember it now.

So we had dinner, we talked and then we went to sleep. The next day the two sisters left (I forgot to say that they were staying with M for couple nights), M was at work and he had given me a key for his place. I saw a bit more of Milan but still I wasn't fascinated with the city so I came back at the house rather early. We had dinner (gnocchi ftw) and I got ready for my next adventure...

Morocco!

To be continued...

Love, Arti

xo

Just some lover

Now I can't think of there without thinking of you
I doubt that comes as a surprise
And I can't think of anything to dream about
I can't find anywhere to hide

And when I'm hanging on by the rings around my eyes
And I convince myself I need another
And for a minute it gets easier to pretend that you were just some lover

A memory

"I will always remember it as an act of love that I had not experienced from any other man before"

I just  read this sentence on a random article and it brought back a memory.

A memory that I don't want to forget.

I would prefer not to share it though...

Just wanted to write this sentence somewhere so whenever I read it, it will bring this precious memory back to life for a second or two.


(I am waaayy too emotional these days. I need to someone to slap me in da face asap!)


Love,
Arti xxx

When movies and tv shows speak for you

I needed some help for this post. The thing is...I am sad and there are things I wanted to express but I didn't know how..

It's been a crappy period. I've got to admit that.

But I guess...

Fuck it!

and just...

But please..

I can't decide if I should be happy or sad about that...

But I think the problem is that..

And the bigger problem is that...

Deep down I guess I am a hopeless romantic after all..

So now it just hurts..

And you...

I didn't..you didn't...we didn't.

And now I just...

and you would come and visit me in my dreams.

But after everything that happened

 and have a brownie or two!!

Yeah. I think I am feeling much, much better now!

Ohh just fuck it man.

I will be ok tomorrow. Pfff

Love,
Arti xxx

We now belong to the past

Sometimes I wonder...is there a good way to end a relationship?

Five days of silent.
Two big egos or just two people who don't care anymore?


But...is there really anything more to say?
Probably not.

The end is here. You feel it. You see it.
All you need now is a closure.
Maybe you will never really get it and at some point it won't even matter.


One step.
Two steps and you are already far away from what now belongs in your past.

And this part of your past is a really sweet one.
No matter what happened, no matter the challenges you both had to face and without trying to romanticize it, it was indeed really sweet.


No one else but the two of us will ever really understand it...


...and thank God for that.

Rudolf Bonvie, Dialog, 13 Fotografie, 1973