Long distance going to a dead end

First there is hope. Hope you will see him again.

Hope you will touch him again.

Hope you will laugh with him again and be in his arms again.

Cook with him.

Hang out him.

Kiss him.

Make love.

And then you think about it more clearly. Life gives you hard glimpses from the future.

You are trying to find solutions. To work it out. But deep down you know that this is the end and all you are doing is just trying to extend the expiration date.

It doesn’t matter if your heart hurts, you just want a few more days with him.  A few more minutes. Even if he is miles away.

You are just hanging in there because you know that these few glimpses of sunshine will worth the days and months of darkness.

Just the thought of not being with him, not seeing him again breaks your heart into million pieces.

You almost can’t breathe by the thought of it…

You remember your last few hours. When both of you were sleeping while waiting for the cab to come and take you to the airport.You were too tired to stay awake.

But you were waking up every now and then trying soo hard to stay awake and not miss a minute from him but you just couldn’t. 

You couldn’t. 

And time passed. The cab was there.

At the back seat sitting close to each other, holding your hands tight you were heading to the end.

Like fools who don’t want to face the truth you both had the feeling that this was not the end. And when the plane took off you hated it. You were already away from the land that he was walking on..and you hated it.

My love I really hope this is not the end.

But if it is, thank you for the precious moments that you gave me.

I will treasure you in my heart habibi.