Cheers to my 1000 Pinterest Followers

Yaaayy!! I am so happy!
 I checked my Pinterest account today and I was so happy to see that the number of my followers has now 4 digits.

Pinterest means a lot to me and it makes me really happy to see that other people like and enjoy my pins. So since I can't thank them there I thought that it would be a good idea to thank them from here with this thank you post.

Cheers my P.F. I love you all!

Arti xxx

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Desperate for a change

I have a problem. When I am not feeling well I know that I am not a good company so I prefer to be alone and spend time on my own, because if I am among other people I feel pressured. I want to be more fun but I can't because I am down and I feel that I am bringing everybody down so that's why I am avoiding everything and everyone. Most people find it strange and they don't understand it. Even my friends have a problem with that but I think that they got used to it with time.

Lately I feel like that and when I say lately I mean a month now...I know. It's a long time. Maybe I am depressed..I don't know.

It's just that I feel that I am entering a period of my life where I am gonna experience a lot of big changes. Changes that I need so bad.

I haven't told you a lot of things about me so I think it's time to let you know me a little bit better. I am a 25 years old girl from Greece. I am still a college student but I will graduate in a couple of months, I just have to submit my final paper and I am done. I still live with my parents although most of the time I live alone. You see my father went to our other house in the village when he retired and so my mother is spending most of her time there and once in a while she comes to visit for a couple weeks.

Even though I kinda live alone, I am not independent. I don't have a job so no money honey and if you don't have your own money there goes your independence. 

The first time I lived away from home was three months ago when I went to live in London for two months. I got the taste of it and now I want more! Ever since I was in high school I kept saying that I want to live abroad and I want to be on my own etc etc This was the first time that my dreams took flesh and bones. I think that's why I feel so down now, because I want more..I need more of this independence otherwise I won't be true to what I was always saying. If I don't do it, if I don't go and live a abroad for longer this time I will be one of those people that I make fun of. The ones that talk only and never get to do anything.

I have to be honest, the thought of going abroad, finding a job and starting a new life from scratch is scary. Actually it's terrifying. I am afraid that I will have to live in shitty places, that I will be lonely etc but on the other hand I will be in charge of my life and this idea is just thrilling. I want to do it. I need to do it. 

That is why I don't feel like myself lately and I am down. Because I am stuck here trying to find a job to go back to London and I am saving money so I don't go out that much and on top of that I don't want to start all of my old habits here as I am afraid that if I do that I will never live and I will stay here forEVAH! Yes, I know that I am exaggerating now but this is how I feel and honestly it sucks.

All I have to do now is to suck it up and find ways that will help me to move on and to live the life that I always wanted to live. And yes it's pretty possible that I will not like it but I will never now if I won't try it first. I prefer to walk through what scares me and not let it keep me behind stuck in the same old things, in the same old life.

I cannot settle with that. I cannot settle with my life as it is now therefore I am forced to move forward to the unknown.

Love,
Arti xxx

When will it rain?!?

Ok it rained couple days ago but now it's summer again.

I need the rain. I need the gloomy sky.

I want to wear warm clothes and sit on my comfy couch drinking tea while I read a book. OK. I won't do all that but you have to admit it's a pretty good fantasy.

Arrgh I am in a rainy mood and the weather just doesn't agree with me.

If I sing about it will it help?
What if I dance?
Pray?
..cook?!

Ok I am just being desperate right now.
And in desperate times we take desperate measures..check out this cool website http://www.rainymood.com/

From what I can tell...there are more people like me out there..! And now if you'll excuse me, I have to go and make myself a tea and enjoy the "rain". As Shirley Manson used to sing.."I am only happy when it rains".

Rainy gloomy love
Arti xxx

Growing up is scary

I feel that I have changed and this scares me because I don't know what this change means and what scares me most is that I feel it's only the beginning. I have a strong need to move forward. To move out from my parents house (yeah I know it's pathetic I am 25 and I am still living with my parents) and to go and live on my own. To take responsibilities, to start a new life. A life that I've always dreamed of but now I am to scared to live it.

I am scared to leave my comfort zone, my pink bubble but on the other hand I feel that I have no choice. I NEED to do that. It's like I am in a crossroad but I know that all roads lead to independence. They lead to the new me.

What scares me most are the people that I am gonna meet. You see I was always hanging out with the "good" people and I was always avoiding the ones that would be a bad influence. I guess my parents did a really good job but to be honest they didn't have to try hard, I was kinda like that on my own.

But this changed when I was in London. I wanted to have fun and so I was hanging out with people that I wouldn't normally hang out. I had a great time and I don't regret anything (don't worry I was always cautious and never did anything stupid) but then again that scared me - I keep repeating this word...interesting.

I think that it scared me because in my mind if you hang out with the wrong people, you will end up doing the wrong things and eventually your life will get a wrong turn. I wish I could have someone to talk about these things. Someone open-minded. But not with someone who lives in a bubble.

I guess if you want to live your life to the fullest you have to take some wrong turns. It's the only way to appreciate the good and to get to know yourself more. Just try these wrong turns to be short and to learn from them so that you won't repeat them.

All I can do now and in the future is to trust myself. Although I don't feel like that now, deep down I know that I have a strong character who will step in whenever I need to and help me make the right choices.

It's a scary thing to grow up as a person..It's a scary thing to change..

A summer in London

Recently I came back from London. I stayed there for two months. Two months that passed by so fast.

I had a crappy start. It started with tears and it ended with tears. But the later ones were different. I was crying for the good time that I had. For the amazing summer that I lived. For all the new experiences that I had. For the things that I learned and for the people that I got to know.
Some of them became friends which I hope that I won't lose. One of them became a boyfriend.

Couple days after my arrival I decided to forget who I am. I was a blank piece of paper waiting for someone to start writing a new story on it. I was open to new things, new people and new cultures.
I didn't forget though to be cautious.I was amazed with myself. I couldn't believe how fast I adapted to the new environment.

Although I have to be honest.

I didn't like London.

No I didn't. It's too crowded for my taste. It's dirty. THEY HAVE MICE THERE. It's super expensive and the food is awful.

But I had a great time. I met people from literally all over the world. Some of them were fun, some of them not. Most of them, if not all of them were weird and I loved that! It was the best part.

I miss my international life and definitely miss my international friends.

It was my first time living away from home. It was my first time living abroad for so long and I hope it's not the last one.

What about you? Have you ever lived abroad?
How was it?

Love Arti xxx

When life happens..

I think that all of us spent more or less time trying to think of how we want our life to be.
But then..life happens and it's sooo different from what you have thought it would be. You find yourself spending time and falling in love with people you never thought you will.

People who are different.

Different nationality.
Different background.
Different culture.
Different religion.

And you are scared because now everything changes.
You are scared of the unknown.
You are scared of the different.

That's when you realise that you are not as free as you thought you were. You can't do whatever you want, because you care what the others are going to say. You let others opinion define your life.

But while we are too busy planning, dreaming of our life and of course making choices we forget that life is short. It's a game that we play, thinking it will last forever but we make fool of ourselves.

Life is a joke. A joke we are taking too seriously.

I hope that you are free. Free to live your life they way you want to.

Free from what others think. Family, friends, society.

Love Arti xxx