For the sweetest angel.
The moment I saw this I immediately thought of you.
I still remember your smile..
I still have the sound of your laugh in my ears..
I still haven't believed it.
I hope you are happy wherever you are and I am sure that you take care of your family and friends who will have you in their hearts and minds forever. Please K don't forget to visit them in their dreams..
This past month I am obsessed with these songs. I keep hearing them over and over and I love them.
Some of them are old some are new.
Hope you like them too. Enjoy my top 5 for hmm let's say December!
5. Snow Patrol - You could be happy
I discovered it recently and the first time I heard it I kept playing it again and again.
With it's sweet melody and it's - oh so sweet - lyrics it describes feelings we've all felt after the end of a relationship with someone who we loved.
You could be happy, I hope you are
Caution! Don't press play if you don't want to bring back memories.
4. Daugther - Youth
Another emotional song. I found it through my beloved 8tracks.com It is such an amazing song with so many great lyrics. I consider it a treasure song that's how I think it is.
Here are some of my favorites parts of the song:
And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.
Setting fire to our insides for fun Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong.
.........................
And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone.
We're setting fire to our insides for fun.
Collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our home,
It was a flood that wrecked this...
..........................
And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone. Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing him.
I mean C'MON! How much more amazing can this song be?!I believe that most of us felt like that at some point in our lives. It describes the dark side of breaking up and still missing the one you love in such an amazing way that you can almost enjoy it. Ok this is kinda weird but hey it's just me guys you don't have to feel the same.
3. Fun - Some nights
If you are feeling down, listen to this song. If the weather gloomy and rainy, listen to this song. I promise it will cheer you up.
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for, oh What do I stand for? What do I stand for? Most nights, I don't know...
Been there dude. Been there.
2. Ellie Gouldin - Anything Could Happen
First heard of it from a trailer promoting the second season of Girls (www.imdb.com/title/tt1723816/) Yay! Btw I love it but I'll talk to you about it another time.
I love, love, LOVE the song title because YES my friends ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN!
To me it's such and optimistic song. I think from the lyrics you understand that it talks about the end of something - probably a relationship or a friendship - but it gives you hope that everything will be alright in the end or not because hey..anything could happen!
1. Bruno Mars - Locked out of heaven
How can you not love this song? Every time I hear it I just want to get up and dance which is exactly what I am gonna do when I finish writing this post.
It's fun. It's energetic. It's seeexy. It's Bruno Mars!
Hope you
will laugh with him again and be in his arms again.
Cook with
him.
Hang out
him.
Kiss him.
Make love.
And then
you think about it more clearly. Life gives you hard glimpses from the future.
You are
trying to find solutions. To work it out. But deep down you know that this is
the end and all you are doing is just trying to extend the expiration date.
It doesn’t
matter if your heart hurts, you just want a few more days with him. A few more minutes. Even if he is miles away.
You are
just hanging in there because you know that these few glimpses of sunshine will
worth the days and months of darkness.
Just the
thought of not being with him, not seeing him again breaks your heart into
million pieces.
You almost
can’t breathe by the thought of it…
You
remember your last few hours.When both
of you were sleeping while waiting for the cab to come and take you to the
airport.You were too
tired to stay awake.
But you
were waking up every now and then trying soo hard to stay awake and not miss a minute from him but you just
couldn’t.
You couldn’t.
And time
passed. The cab was there.
At the back
seat sitting close to each other, holding your hands tight you were heading to
the end.
Like fools
who don’t want to face the truth you both had the feeling that this was not the
end. And when the plane took off you hated it. You were already away from the land that he was walking on..and you hated it.
My love I
really hope this is not the end.
But if it
is, thank you for the precious moments that you gave me.
Yaaayy!! I am so happy!
I checked my Pinterest account today and I was so happy to see that the number of my followers has now 4 digits.
Pinterest means a lot to me and it makes me really happy to see that other people like and enjoy my pins. So since I can't thank them there I thought that it would be a good idea to thank them from here with this thank you post.
I have a problem. When I am not feeling well I know that I am not a good company so I prefer to be alone and spend time on my own, because if I am among other people I feel pressured. I want to be more fun but I can't because I am down and I feel that I am bringing everybody down so that's why I am avoiding everything and everyone. Most people find it strange and they don't understand it. Even my friends have a problem with that but I think that they got used to it with time.
Lately I feel like that and when I say lately I mean a month now...I know. It's a long time. Maybe I am depressed..I don't know.
It's just that I feel that I am entering a period of my life where I am gonna experience a lot of big changes. Changes that I need so bad.
I haven't told you a lot of things about me so I think it's time to let you know me a little bit better. I am a 25 years old girl from Greece. I am still a college student but I will graduate in a couple of months, I just have to submit my final paper and I am done. I still live with my parents although most of the time I live alone. You see my father went to our other house in the village when he retired and so my mother is spending most of her time there and once in a while she comes to visit for a couple weeks.
Even though I kinda live alone, I am not independent. I don't have a job so no money honey and if you don't have your own money there goes your independence.
The first time I lived away from home was three months ago when I went to live in London for two months. I got the taste of it and now I want more! Ever since I was in high school I kept saying that I want to live abroad and I want to be on my own etc etc This was the first time that my dreams took flesh and bones. I think that's why I feel so down now, because I want more..I need more of this independence otherwise I won't be true to what I was always saying. If I don't do it, if I don't go and live a abroad for longer this time I will be one of those people that I make fun of. The ones that talk only and never get to do anything.
I have to be honest, the thought of going abroad, finding a job and starting a new life from scratch is scary. Actually it's terrifying. I am afraid that I will have to live in shitty places, that I will be lonely etc but on the other hand I will be in charge of my life and this idea is just thrilling. I want to do it. I need to do it.
That is why I don't feel like myself lately and I am down. Because I am stuck here trying to find a job to go back to London and I am saving money so I don't go out that much and on top of that I don't want to start all of my old habits here as I am afraid that if I do that I will never live and I will stay here forEVAH! Yes, I know that I am exaggerating now but this is how I feel and honestly it sucks.
All I have to do now is to suck it up and find ways that will help me to move on and to live the life that I always wanted to live. And yes it's pretty possible that I will not like it but I will never now if I won't try it first. I prefer to walk through what scares me and not let it keep me behind stuck in the same old things, in the same old life.
I cannot settle with that. I cannot settle with my life as it is now therefore I am forced to move forward to the unknown.
Ok it rained couple days ago but now it's summer again.
I need the rain. I need the gloomy sky.
I want to wear warm clothes and sit on my comfy couch drinking tea while I read a book. OK. I won't do all that but you have to admit it's a pretty good fantasy.
Arrgh I am in a rainy mood and the weather just doesn't agree with me.
If I sing about it will it help?
What if I dance?
Pray?
..cook?!
Ok I am just being desperate right now.
And in desperate times we take desperate measures..check out this cool website http://www.rainymood.com/
From what I can tell...there are more people like me out there..! And now if you'll excuse me, I have to go and make myself a tea and enjoy the "rain". As Shirley Manson used to sing.."I am only happy when it rains".
I feel that I have changed and this scares me because I don't know what this change means and what scares me most is that I feel it's only the beginning. I have a strong need to move forward. To move out from my parents house (yeah I know it's pathetic I am 25 and I am still living with my parents) and to go and live on my own. To take responsibilities, to start a new life. A life that I've always dreamed of but now I am to scared to live it.
I am scared to leave my comfort zone, my pink bubble but on the other hand I feel that I have no choice. I NEED to do that. It's like I am in a crossroad but I know that all roads lead to independence. They lead to the new me.
What scares me most are the people that I am gonna meet. You see I was always hanging out with the "good" people and I was always avoiding the ones that would be a bad influence. I guess my parents did a really good job but to be honest they didn't have to try hard, I was kinda like that on my own.
But this changed when I was in London. I wanted to have fun and so I was hanging out with people that I wouldn't normally hang out. I had a great time and I don't regret anything (don't worry I was always cautious and never did anything stupid) but then again that scared me - I keep repeating this word...interesting.
I think that it scared me because in my mind if you hang out with the wrong people, you will end up doing the wrong things and eventually your life will get a wrong turn. I wish I could have someone to talk about these things. Someone open-minded. But not with someone who lives in a bubble.
I guess if you want to live your life to the fullest you have to take some wrong turns. It's the only way to appreciate the good and to get to know yourself more. Just try these wrong turns to be short and to learn from them so that you won't repeat them.
All I can do now and in the future is to trust myself. Although I don't feel like that now, deep down I know that I have a strong character who will step in whenever I need to and help me make the right choices.
It's a scary thing to grow up as a person..It's a scary thing to change..
Recently I came back from London. I stayed there for two months. Two months that passed by so fast.
I had a crappy start. It started with tears and it ended with tears. But the later ones were different. I was crying for the good time that I had. For the amazing summer that I lived. For all the new experiences that I had. For the things that I learned and for the people that I got to know.
Some of them became friends which I hope that I won't lose. One of them became a boyfriend.
Couple days after my arrival I decided to forget who I am. I was a blank piece of paper waiting for someone to start writing a new story on it. I was open to new things, new people and new cultures.
I didn't forget though to be cautious.I was amazed with myself. I couldn't believe how fast I adapted to the new environment.
Although I have to be honest.
I didn't like London.
No I didn't. It's too crowded for my taste. It's dirty. THEY HAVE MICE THERE. It's super expensive and the food is awful.
But I had a great time. I met people from literally all over the world. Some of them were fun, some of them not. Most of them, if not all of them were weird and I loved that! It was the best part.
I miss my international life and definitely miss my international friends.
It was my first time living away from home. It was my first time living abroad for so long and I hope it's not the last one.
What about you? Have you ever lived abroad?
How was it?
I think that all of us spent more or less time trying to think of how we want our life to be.
But then..life happens and it's sooo different from what you have thought it would be. You find yourself spending time and falling in love with people you never thought you will.
People who are different.
Different nationality.
Different background.
Different culture.
Different religion.
And you are scared because now everything changes.
You are scared of the unknown.
You are scared of the different.
That's when you realise that you are not as free as you thought you were. You can't do whatever you want, because you care what the others are going to say. You let others opinion define your life.
But while we are too busy planning, dreaming of our life and of course making choices we forget that life is short. It's a game that we play, thinking it will last forever but we make fool of ourselves.
Life is a joke. A joke we are taking too seriously.
I hope that you are free. Free to live your life they way you want to.
Free from what others think. Family, friends, society.
